Why was he telling me this? “Is everything okay?” “Look, I have to leave tomorrow for a couple of days.” It was other things.” He gulped, and I’d swear one of his hands cupped the back of my head. The arms he had around me tightened, but the rest of his body relaxed. His sigh was so deep, it was choppy on the way out. “I thought you were mad at me last night when you left,” I told him.

He’d hugged me the night before, hadn’t he? I hadn’t imagined it? His voice wasn’t any less rough or mean as he said, “You scared the hell out of all of us.” It didn’t prepare me for the arms that went around them afterward, or the chest that came in contact with my forehead. The sigh that came out of him wasn’t even a slight warning for the hands that came to my shoulders and gave them a squeeze. It was a different one than he’d worn to the movies the night before. Josh already-” My voice broke and I dropped my gaze to the bottom of the wrinkled T-shirt he had on. Guilt pricked at my chest, and I swallowed at the same time my eyes got teary. Really goddamn stupid, and I don’t think you seem to realize that-” From the murderous expression on his face, it could have been both. He looked like he was mulling my words over… or talking himself out of yelling at me. I knew when he didn’t comment on me calling him Dr. His eyelids hung low over those hazel eyes, and I caught a flash of his teeth as they bit down on the inside of his cheek for a moment. There was money in the account I had set aside for the boys from Rodrigo’s life insurance policy, but I would never, ever touch it. I could probably get by without working for a couple of weeks, but that was it-and that was with me counting every penny and not wasting a single cent. I didn’t have some huge savings account I’d barely started getting my feet back under me after taking time off to visit Vanessa, and asking my family or Van for money seemed like a horrible fucking idea.

I had no idea, and that made me panic a little.

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